Teenage Dirtbag Blues

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I am always asking myself questions.  Am I good looking, am I happy, do other people like me.  These questions were the loudest in High School and dictated how I felt.  

I was asking myself all of these questions about life, but I was giving myself the wrong answers.  One question that I was botching up was “How much are you willing to give.”  My answer in High School was “what’s the least I can do.”

That answer manifested itself in my soccer training, in my day job, and in the weight room. I thought the final goal was being comfortable and pain-free.  I thought if I could do something with the least effort to finish something, the faster I could reach the comfort I wanted.

I suffered from that answer because it made me weak.  It made me want to quit. I was unhappy because my mind, body, soul doesn’t like comfort.  I get bored like a caged up parrot pulling off its own feathers because it has no where to put it boundless energy.

The answer that finally made me change course and excited to live was “What’s the most that I can give.” I stole that answer from Quest founder Tom Bilyeu’s Youtube videos.

I’m the happiest when I am in pain.  When I am hungry for answers.  I am reading, pushing myself at the gym, constantly meditating.  When I am comfortable my day just goes by, it’s dull, I have no dragons to train for or hunt down.

I’m happy in pain because I am required to be strong.  And to be strong is what I always want to be.

My strength is determined by the strength of my answers to the questions I ask myself.  That is why I steal from strong people.